I don't know what to do!!

I feel so unhappy these couple weeks. No one knows how I'm feeling these days. I don't know what to do. I'm hiding my unhappiness from friends. I said I was going to call him this week. I still haven't call him yet. I'm just afraid to. I don't wanna call and get reject by him again. The last time i saw him was 2 weeks ago. That was the day i saw him standing there i just couldn't look up at him cause he hurt my feelings by ignoring my calls. I feel embarrass that I told him he knows how to play with someone feeling. I still haven't seen him. I hope he not sick. If he is i hope he feeling better. I should try have the guts to call him. I would never tell him i miss seeing him around. Maybe I haven't seen him cause i hardly look up!