It's been almost 2 years!!!

It's been almost 2 years I haven't been happy in my marriage. My husband knows I haven't been happy he doesn't do anything about it. I ask him if he wanted to separate he doesn't say anything. He called me last week just to yell at me. I hanged up on him. I haven't seen him since April. He doesn't try to see me. All he does is complain. All the years we been together I never been attracted to someone else. I am attracted to someone now. He's rude to me, he ignores me. I'm always calling him he never calls. Is he the way he is cause he knows I'm married or he just that way. He never say hi after I told him I'm good friends with someone he knows. Why am I always attracted to shady guys. I don't trust guys to easy. Why i don't trust guys? My ex used me and  he lied to me.It was hard for me to trust any guys after we broke up. That's why I ask a lot of personal questions cause I'm try to get to know the person. If I do get a divorced or get separated it would be really hard for me to trust any guy. Why am I thinking about him when he diss me a couple times. Yes I am still mad. He to chicken to approach me and explain what happen that Friday.

Why do men drive like idiots? I was driving to work today I almost got into a car accident. I was really shaken up. It was so close lucky I pulled my emergency hand break.