Today

I call my husband up and told him I got a flat. He yells at me instead. I told him shit happens. I can't help it. There's to many pot holes from the winter. He said I have a flat cause I'm in NYC. Whatever I told him. I hang up the phone after that didn't want to hear it anymore. He's not paying for my new tire I don't know why he bitching. We haven't been getting along for a while. He call just to yell sometimes. I just want to scream today.


I want to call but im afraid to. Why? Cause he didnt answer the last time I call. If I do call and he doesn't answer I feel really arkward and i want to hide when I do see him.
 I'm thinking maybe he doesn't like me that's why he doesn't answer and he just want to avoid answering it. He never calls. I don't know what to do. I can't ask anyone for their advise. They will yell at me. Smh. 

My friends from the neighborhood. The husband ask me today. Is your husband coming to see you. I told them no. He ask why. I told them he doesn't want to. he doesn't like nyc and he doesnt like my brother. He said that's a stupid excuse. He said why is he leaving alone a pretty girl by herself that's not good. Husband and Wife should always be together. The wife said the mother in law is trying to break the marriage up and he kind of a momma's boy. She told me to tell him to chose his mom or his wife. He not choosing. She said I can't live like this. Fix it or find someone else. I think they knew for a long time something was going on in my marriage. I'm always here NYC and I'm always hanging out with friends. They never ask me until today. I can't hide it anymore. Only real friends could tell I'm not happy. Is it written on my forehead.